God replaced my Ps...

I’ve always thought this illness (my SCA) has taken away everything in my life, namely; my
- Passion
- Personality
- (Potential) Partner.

My Passion was theatre. It allowed me to express myself with my voice and body; the 2 elements that are now disintegrating everyday due to this horrific illness.

My Personality was that of an extrovert. I liked making nonsensical (but hopefully funny) remarks, joke and “flutter” around during social settings. I enjoyed socialising very much but now I feel repressed, because I’m unable to do what I used to like.

A (Potential) Partner was definitely on my list ‘to get’. Well, I used to be quite the hopeless romantic and it was pretty much impossible for me understand “celibacy” or end up without (the) one.

BUT

God, being God and super great (read: gracious) replaced ALL of the above in my life by knocking His sense into me... His invaluable P!

Yup, His PERSPECTIVE!

My previous Ps, now with this renewed PERSPECTIVE He has granted me have shifted so dramatically:

Firstly my Passion should be for Him and His Plans & Purposes. So, if its not theatre now (or anymore), it must be something else. I’d just have to wait for His leading to find it!

Secondly He is my creator so He definitely knows (& values) my limited Personality. It could now be time to develop the introvert in me - then I’d be perfect! For Him.

Lastly my desire for a Partner has been eliminated & I’m amazed and super thankful for this miracle. Actually it’s very hard to imagine having to manage another relationship in my life given this condition of mine.

While enjoying these new Perspectives I’ve been granted, I’m also delighting in another P of His everyday.. His Power! Yes, I experience this at every moment whenever I ask for help every time I need to overcome any inconvenience this illness brings me. :)

End of 2018

The year has ended. 

But it doesn’t end there for many of us. Things keep rolling on (and on, and on...) especially His blessings!

Many of us must be feeling so blessed at the end of the year (like me!) Idea: 

My word for 2018 is LOVED. Here’s just a reminder for everyone (myself included) to keep the blessings flowing on, remember we’re blessed to be a blessing! 

Things I'm too embarrassed to admit I like

1. Scrubs
2. Harry Potter
3. Starbucks Toffeenut Latte

Lets get to the point. So. These are scrubs. 

They’re what medical staff wear in surgery. People have fetishes for uniforms etc but mine’s simple scrubs okokok? 

The irresistible mystery of those flickering eyelashes plus extremely enchanting eyes behind the surgical mask (often worn together with a scrub) creates such magic for me.. the simple V neckline reveals a glimpse of often well-defined collarbones which are oh-so-charming. Hee hee so me liketh scrubs (very much)!

BUT. 

One’s supposed to be unflinchingly serious in that medical context. Who has time for frivolous fetishes or damning desires?? So cannot like. 

Ok. Harry Potter. He’s meant for younger folks. JK Rowling must be targeting the lower age group so I am too old. It’s very unbecoming of me to believe in magic too. 

Starbucks is just too expensive and commercialised. As a self proclaimed coffee connoisseur, thou shall not enjoy any form of Starbucks. 

But I only like Toffeenut Latte that’s only available near Christmas so that’s ok right?  

Actually, many might already know that Christmas is not just about Toffeenut Lattes, pretty Christmas trees/lights at Orchard Road or even thoughtful and/or expensive gifts. 

IT IS THE DAY JESUS WAS BORN. 

That’s the greatest gift ever. As believers, we Christians must always remember why we celebrate Christmas (we can rouse /  appeal to others to celebrate with us BUT let us all not be overcome with the festivities or hype of the occasion that we forget the true meaning of Christmas!